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Do I want less to think about or more?

Should I consume or should I digest?

Should I try to exert or should I rest?

Today, he sat still, he sat still, nothing, there’s nothing, all the old drives have cleared from him, he no longer really feels shame, he’s not actually afraid of losing anything, it just is as it is today, nothing, the cowboy hat his Dad gave him, nothing.

Times like this…

That’s fine man, that’s really okay, it’s completely okay for me not to like suttin and man if I like things then I like things, but faking it feels icky and we all know it, you wont get anything gooey from faking it, that’s just how it is, so be…

I wanted a good job that I was proud of to make my parents proud and now I’m done. I’ve done it, I no longer really care about making other people really really proud, I keep them from being really annoyed now, that’s all, their great pride in the short…

“Who I was at uni wasn’t someone attractive”

“I’ll change and become the best, like no one ever was”

“I’ll do this so that I can give my all to the lady who accepts me one day”

I used to sit there and imagine a lady in a black dress…

I write on everything and everything because I just want to be able to sit at a keyboard and vomit out something interesting. No! Not interesting, something which brings about a sensation in people which inevitably will bring money into my pocket.

I wish to swindle people from their money…

Am I trying to be an auditor by lying down here in bed?
Am I trying to be an auditor by avoiding all this work?
Am I trying to be an auditor by imagining myself fighting and rebelling against work so much? …

“When somebody hates your very existence, you can see it in their eyes.” Naruto grew up with everyone hating his very being, I am now in a home where I see it in their eyes, I see it in the eyes of every family member I sit with. …

ROAAAAAAARRRR In came the Giant T-Rex. “Muahahaha you’ll never stop me Agent Orange and your mother will never love you again.” “What the fuck did you just say you...” The Giant T-Rex interrupted with a ROAARRR, Jacku hesitated for a second but he didn’t let that stop him talking, trying…

Why was I always so afraid to be away from my mum?

Why have I always been so drawn to something that’s something else?

Why have I always looked forward to there being something else?

Why have I always needed to run away?

Why is it only when I’m with…

Mo Arslan

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