I’m the child of immigrants, I have less in common with more people than the average person. The few that really understand me are my cousins. But my dad was rich so I went to a rich school and I hated my mom’s style of teaching/our religion didn’t make sense to me anymore/ I was just horny, so I didn’t follow the culture anymore and went to a uni away from home.
I’m one of the older cousins so who knows how much things will change but right now I feel really alone with my problems, I know people have gone through these but the sucky moments are weird to try and deal with. So I thought I’d try to write this, a dark Jedi’s guide to life. Neither dark, nor light, trying to be good but wanting to bone also :).
More people than ever before are probably in this situation, globalism and the meaning crisis has meant that there are more lost kids wandering out here than ever before, the food and the art is gonna be incredible, more new shit out there than ever before. Enjoy those as much as you can.
I chose not to take my parents anymore, buying alcohol still doesn’t feel pure but using his money seems not as sexy as I think my life can be. If you are going to do things your family doesn’t like, occasionally do it well, and if you aren’t going to do things your family wants, utilise the freedom, there’s probably gold there somewhere. Think about the alcohol you’re buying, plan the mixes, read about the pork you’re buying learn how to prepare and cook it well.
Be careful of replacing the things you were used to with random habits. I spend a lot of time on YouTube I think its because I just love hearing people I like talk and miss my friends, but it can get a little bad.
Showing that who I am is good by cooking, or making something cool feels important too.